Wingedfairy

Bring a spark of hope to a dying world, 

Seeking a new kind of life. 

Swallowing my pride and giving into you, 

I know something is wrong. 

Something is wrong, 

I know I’m the sacrifice again, 

I know I’m the one to be hurt. 

Trying to protect me from the inevitable, 

I jump from the cliff.

 I’ve already fallen, I’ve already started my decent, I’m lost and weak in this life,

and I’m starting to wonder again. 

You may want me, I may want you, But I’ve already started to fall. 

I’m not the same, I’m not weak anymore. 

My heart is gone, my heart is lost, It can’t be found. 

There is always a cruel wanting and it’s to never be filled or satisfied for every long.

Denying that I’m meant to stay lone and forever wallow in self denial. 

Knowing that feeling calm, relaxed, and neutral is no way to be when the one you want is always hoping for the good in the ones that are worst and will never change. 

From the start I should have seen it and never given it a chance. 

That was the mistake and taking myself out of the equation is the worst thing that I could possibly do at this point in time. 

Knowing that we are both scared and pretty much have nothing left, all the feelings that I’m feeling mean something to you and I won’t share them.

Not this time, wanting to find the strength to find what I use to believe in and find a way to stop the process.

Knowing that you have found what you have wanted to find in this world. 

I’m still wandering even though you think I’m not. 

I’m the one that is living the lie now and the change that has to open my eyes to the light again are closed and are falling back into the dark. 

How can I be released from everything and tied to nothing, if I don’t even know what was released in the first place.