February 2012
13 posts
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weight of your world
There’s no one left to be here, no one left to be the hero anymore.
Not even the Reaper can move my soul,
Forever chained, forever fallen.
My wings won’t raise me again.
On my knees screaming and bleeding,
I pray that it will all end.
The fairytale is broken, brought into the nightmare,
I’m suffocating here, surrounded by your chains.
Fallen from my place, I...
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Love in a hopeless place
Suffocated, drowning in your pain from another time.
Sadness pulling me down, finding my place in your world again.
If you began to fall apart, I wouldn’t tell you that you are the lie.
I won’t tell you that you are the sacrifice.
You won’t see the light and I’m fading back to black and i’m blacking out again.
How can you stand there,
How can you love from...
accidentalmessup asked: hey there, I like your poem, "Never Back Down." Would it be alright if i post it on my other blog, poems-and-lyrics? I will give you credit of course :)
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Never backing down
From start I realized that if I fall from the edge of this cliff,
I will land on my feet and be standing on my own.
Then I wondered what would happen to you if you didn’t fall with me?
It was a matter of would I catch you or would I make you stand on your own, I love you and will catch you if you begin to fall.
Falling with me, I’ll be holding you up and land on my feet holding...
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I need this to hurt
There eis no explanation that you can give me for the choice that you made.
I didn’t want to be made into something experimental.
Stay far away, for I am what I was created to be.
Staying at a distance, yet close enough to save you.
I can’t save myself, but I can save you.
I am the one who picks up all the pieces,
For I have no one to pick mine up.
Compassion has left me and...
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Closing the door
Praying it all away and knowing that it will never fade and that it will last forever.
No on surrendering will help you see again and believe again.
There are happy lies and everyone is breaking.
So close to me and I’m falling to my knees again as you let the pain settle in on your own.
No one has to understand, waiting to understand and I’m the one still.
Knowing that you...
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Typical
Many seasons have passed my by.
I’ve seen wonders,
I’ve dreamed for so long.
I’d give my heart and soul up just to know your alright.
The situation is turned back and it’s on me.
You will learn that not everything is alright,
I’ve cried over wasted time before.
I want to understand,
and I’ll never surrender.
I’m losing control and...
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Fragile wall
Bleeding again,
I’m over now.
Breathing in my poison,
Feeling your pain.
I apologize was allowing us to happen.
There are no words that I can say that will help or fix this situation.
All I can do is try to move forward and hope that your choice was the right one.
I’ve given you the chance to live again, I can never be sorry for love.
It was perfect love that I gave to...
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Soul
I’m the one who will stay, when you are the one alone.
I’ll be standing here, waiting for you.
There is no solid ground and I’m giving up the look of a new day.
I’m giving up the chance to live again and I know you feel it.
I still believe and will give up everything for you.
I’m surrendering…..
I won’t be sorry for love and won’t ever...
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Not the Answer
Picking up the pieces and starting back over.
You may break over and over again, the pain begins to hurt less and less.
Numbness begins to settle in and emptiness begins to feel so right, while everything else falls down around you.
It’s never easy to watch the ones you fall in love with walk away from you.
Missing it all and wondering what went wrong.
Faking it and making it look...
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Stepping into Darkness
Reading your mind and I see it all before you do.
If it’s right it will come to you, there is no way out.
Knowing that you don’t know what say.
Why surrender when you can have love?
There is no easy way out,
Don’t shut your heart out and doubt it.
When the day after today starts to settle in before it’s even begun, I’ll stand there and support you.
I have...
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Fool in love
I’ve seen you before and it’s been a while.
Knowing that you are standing on the sidelines of every situation,
never joining in the enthusiasm of the crowd.
Knowing that it hurts to have to let the things we want go, but if they were ever truly ours we evan let them go and they will come back eventually.
Knowing that I didn’t ask for much and never demanded anything.
...
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Pleasure and Pain
Recalling the first time I looked into your eyes and saw something that wanted to be set free.
The tears had started from the beginning,
From the start it was you and me.
To the end it was you and me,
Ending in a way that lovers must,
Standing behind your choice in what you choice.
I won’t forget the pain or the hurt that you were feeling.
It was my fault from the start,
It...
January 2012
11 posts
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Falsity falling away
You wanted to know who I am, letting go of a wall, that I’ve had for so long. Keeping myself safe and hollow. I had wondered for years why it was important to feel and watched people let themselves get hurt. From a distance I’ve watched, trying to understand if there was something that I was missing. I’ve never truly understood, I’ve only watched and pondered it;s meaning...
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Nothing can change the way that I feel.
Bring a spark of hope to a dying world,
Seeking a new kind of life.
Swallowing my pride and giving into you,
I know something is wrong.
Something is wrong,
I know I’m the sacrifice again,
I know I’m the one to be hurt.
Trying to protect me from the inevitable,
I jump from the cliff.
I’ve already fallen, I’ve already started my decent, I’m lost and weak in this life,
and I’m...
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2 Worlds
From the inside you are crying and screaming.
On the other hand you are also happy in the second life that you have,
Losing one life would cut you in half and down to a different size.
The other expects you to fail, one is everything that you have ever wanted.
You wish it could all be different, even if you were someone else.
It’s the fact that it’s you and you are the one...
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Question for a Question
The look in your eyes tells me something different.
The taste of your kiss is something unreal.
Feeling your pain is something I can’t bare to see.
Knowing your crying and I’m not near hurts the worst.
Distracting you from the hurt and the pain is all that I want to do.
Knowing that you want me the same way, feels so right.
Feeling you and smelling you near when you...
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Difference
From the start something was there,
The change happened and there was nothing that we could about it.
Smiling and talking knowing that everyone is looking at us,
But while away from the others, it’s all different.
Knowing that everything has changed and won’t fall back into place the way it did before.
It’s time to go shopping, because I’m loosing it hard.
I notice...
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Impossibly Perfect
Finding a way to get lost within someone else,
Remembering that everything that comes back to you must have been broken at some time or another.
Wanting to change my mind, I know it’s too let to take a different path.
Rising to the challenge and knowing that it can all be seen,
everyday I find myself looking at you.
Realizing that you won’t ever come to me, I won’t fall...
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Shine
Shinning like the sun and sparkling like a star in the night sky.
Light shows you, your path.
Heading in the right direction, I know there is something different.
From the beginning there was going to be a change.
From the outside there was a light.
From the inside came the hidden light.
Moving at the speed of normality, realizing what needs to be done.
Feeling warm and cozy once...
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Reach and Stand Back
Waking in the night feeling cold.
Slipping back into your world,
Hoping for n ending that will come soon.
Wondering how your able to stay away.
The pain of it getting to me, the pleasure your feeling.
I’ve been here the whole time,
Why be in denial of what and who you really are.
Feeling the sun warm my face as you watch from a distance.
Feeling the moonlight on my skin...
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Left
Standing in front of you,
Waiting for an answer.
I know you won’t say a thing,
It’s always the same thing with you.
I’ve fallen away from you, I won’t stay for long.
You’ve had your chances, you let me fall away.
Our worlds won’t collide anymore,
I won’t say yes again.
I won’t be left behind again.
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Stuck in the Middle.
It was simple from the start,
I walked on by you every day.
Now we’re staring at each other all the time.
An I don’t know what to say….
You break my heart, you make my day.
I cry a day, you fix it up.
I’m loosing sight, you bring it back.
Rocking me on the floor, picking up the pieces that you break.
Flying all over the place with your hands up in the air.
...
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Distance
You’ve gone away,
No more time to waste.
Feeling lost and broken, I’m not the one missing.
I carry on, never leaving this place you’ve left behind.
Never starting shit, always the one left to deal.
Living the life of a refugee and I stand behind you all the way.
I haven’t missed you yet, I know you hear my silent screams when you wake in the morning.
I will never...
December 2011
8 posts
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Doors slipping
Wishing I could be the person that you love the most,
But I will never be what you planned on having.
For every time you look at me, I fall captivate in your spell.
Refusing to move away from this place, I fall into your trap.
Dancing in your ring and floating on top of the water I refuse to fall into.
Hanging on and not wanting to loose the hold you have over me.
I can’t stop...
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Believe
I use to believe that once day I’d find everything I ever wanted.
That thought has sailed and has changed from several years ago.
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Blank
Staring at the sky line and deciding to fade back into black,
The decision was tough and the effort it takes to go back to another time isn’t easy.
the choice is never the easy one.
We all have to make sacrifices at some time or another.
Some of us make them after years of thinking about it and others don’t do it at all.
It’s when we realize that its for the best of the...
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Standing in front of me
The puzzle shifting and changing. bleeding out the color it once had.
All the tears I shed won’t let me be free from grieving for you.
I saved you once and allowed you to bury me.
I won’t let you leave me this time,
Where will I go?
All I did was try to love you and you fooled me as I watched you let yourself fall.
There was a world that we use to hold together and now I...
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different path
Even though it kills me to have to leave,
I won’t write to you.
You’ll forget me and I’ll fade away into your past.
I helped you be the person you were meant to be.
Someday you’ll miss me, find a reason to grieve me.
I’ve finished it out and cashed out your case,
I won’t let you give it to me.
Leaving from here, I want something different from you.
You...
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All You Wanted
Flying through this life like there is nothing to it,
All that I know is that I don’t know how to be something that you want.
Going through the motions and it’s always on the end of my lips what I want to say.
Knowing that you are watching me and forgetting me as the hours slip by.
It was you from the start and the sun that fell down on your face from the start.
Never planned on...
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Fall
Frozen as everything that could let this moment slip away does,
I know that you can hear me and feel me.
Sorry, for it all.
It’s over and it’s all mine.
Temporarily fixing the mistakes that were made in the past and never meaning to lie, but always managing too. I’m all alone and I’m screaming.
Why make me feel this pain any longer. I can’t stand before you and act like there isn’t...
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Free from it all
The past is too late and the future comes from the past.
Learning from the past to create a different tomorrow.
Waking from a dream of someone else’s life,
I feel like I’ve been sleeping for years.
Falling and remembering myself.
I’ve stopped believing in what could be and start believing in what has to be.
Sick of trying and sick of listening to all the lies.
From...
November 2011
9 posts
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Faded music
Isn’t it better if I just stop believing?
My choice was made,
I surrendered to it all.
I don’t want to believe that it exist.
Wanted to tell u how I feel,
Fearing the worst.
Never speaking and missing the chance that could of existed.
Leaving me with nothing left, I allow myself to fade back to the beginning and pick back up on the life I left behind.
Changing...
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Weak
I’ve never seen you out,
You’ve walked out of my life and stayed in the background,
Walking back in when there wasn’t someone with me to take me away from you.
A moment like this doesn’t come that often, take your chance.
I’ve been here and I’m not hiding from you.
I was always in the crowd and I’ve wondered if you’ve noticed me from a far as...
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Reach
Knowing your story and what’s behind you.
When it’s something that you aren’t looking for at the moment, sometimes the things you aren’t expecting fall into your lap.
Letting go of everything and never knowing where the answers are coming from.
I’m right in front of you, but can you let yourself fall to see me.
When someone speaks to you through music, how do...
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tell or not to...
Believing in something distant,
Lost for so long.
Hoping for the right answer to come in my direction.
Knowing that everything could collapse.
Breaking me down and making me feel like I’ve been falling for hours.
Wondering how to tell you my feelings…
Your the fantasy and when I told you I was alright, I completely lied.
Knowing that the moments we have together are in silence...
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Can it be said??
Wanting you to hold me,
Hoping you will get the hint and just put your arms around me.
Trying to get you to admit that you need me.
How many times will you just let me keep walking by you?
Keeping your eyes on me,
never knowing that I’ve already fallen.
I was hoping that you could see right through me.
Feeling that you have a connection to me and I try to never let you see the...
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Denying and accepting something special
Denying a feeling,
knowing that it was always you from the start.
Hoping it would all just fade away over time.
Promising myself that it was never you.
I never let you down and I believed in you.
I’m broken and don’t want you to have something that is already lost.
Feeling a need to just come out and say what I have to say to you.
Feeling like I’m falling and lost...
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Almost spoken Secret
Knowing that I can’t run away from you,
You know there is something special between us.
Looking into my eyes, you know I’m lost in you.
Being confused about it all and understand what your going through.
Strong about it either way isn’t going to help you.
Staying away won’t help you, knowing that your heart knows that I’m the one.
On your knees again,...
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Be ready every answer dreamed
Maybe I don’t want to be found,
Swallowed by your voice.
Falling too deep into you.
Knowing I should pull away from you.
Keeping it all inside and knowing that it all makes me numb.
Passing by like I’m in slow motion.
Coming from the inside and moving outward.
Your the music I’ve been waiting for.
WIll you disappoint me and fade to black?
October 2011
13 posts
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Grave
With a small breathe, it’s the last before feeling the last wave of pain.
Waiting for something that never will, embedded deep under the surface.
Growing so cold, times have changed and I’ve closed my eyes from everything that once brought joy.
Left without a soul and the time will bring broken pieces back to me.
A love that never existed,
A love that never will,
On my own...
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Burned
The hidden secret with the truth embedded for an eternity.
Drowning in the dawn of another life, burned by it for an eternity.
Tearing at the seams, what does it matter its an eternity.
Your not the one stained with another’s wasted life.
Ripping everything out from the inside, broken and shattered, this is your process that I have taken on.
I shouldn’t of had to take on all...
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Divided
Why should I allow myself to enjoy anything, I know that it hurts. But it’s so wrong to me, I’m just the sacrifice. why not just follow the intended path I was meant to take at first, It’s so much easier than just letting myself slip away. Why not just settle even more than I have and deal with the pain of the unwanted life. Denying the life I want, Denying myself...
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Loneliness
You say you can’t be there for me,
Yet you have been.
You say you can’t be who I want you to be,
But I never asked you to be something that you aren’t.
Trying to be what everyone wants you to be,
Giving up on those who don’t ask for anything.
Why fake your life, your older now.
Breathe on, breathe now.
Only you are breaking down.
Hold on, slowly melting away....
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Say you understand....
Thought I could take it, I’m falling again.
I wish you could understand, I can’t handle your pain.
I want to be free, thought I could tell you.
Do you even understand, or does it even matter?
Thought you were everything that I wanted.
Capturing me in your spell, you all most had me…..
Broken promises, I’m numb again.
Pushing away, I can feel it over and over again....
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Cherry chocolates
Far away, long ago
There was a dream I once had.
Driven to the end, my once shattered life.
Here we are back again, falling apart at the seams.
You were once, a dream come true.
Failing to thrive, throwing it all away.
I can’t tell you what you need.
I can’t tell you what you want.
But I think you know the lie.
Sailing to the end, I can’t find a reason not to leave....
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Cherry
Responding to my every move.
I want the chance to live again,
Can’t you see it’s true.
Flirting like no other, tasting your salty tears.
Kissing your soft lips, it all comes back.
I know you see,
Bring me back again tonight.
Maybe your the one, I’ve been longing to see.
Help me feel again, I know you can.
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Strawberry
Feeling only a wanting,
Feeling you respond to me.
Your voice and touch won’t let me go.
Feeling so numb, I might as well be lost.
Bringing me back again, the warmth back to my heart.
Giving me a reason to believe,
Giving me a reason to hope
You really want me. I know there is nothing I could say to change your mind. I don’t want to be your experiment and wrong choice....
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Never Enough
Tearing out my heart,
feeling the pain for the last time.
Knowing that it’s almost over.
Absorbing the feelings around me one last time.
Memorizing every last detail that you left me with.
Forgetting me, forsaking me, altering me.
I won’t return to you today,
My heart will return to the icy heart it once was.
The sun won’t warm my face anymore.
The sun won’t warm...